Why Guns Won't Keep You Safe
.....How
long had he had it? I don't know! Why did he have it! I don't know! Why
did he keep it in the car? I don't know! Why did he keep it loaded? I
don't know! Why in a cigar box? I don't know! Was it registered? I don't
know! Did you know he had it? No.....
"You're
a Good Man, Charlie Brown!" was playing live and the kids were so
excited to be going with Linda and me. Their fathers, Don and Tom, were
at an attorneys' reception and Linda, with her two children, had picked
us up at the law office on Lady Street. In those days before seat belt
laws, Jeff, aged 5, Jeny, 3, and Linda's oldest--Jeff's age--sat
unrestrained together in the back. Linda's baby, who was barely 2,
stood between us in the front.
Not
long after we pulled away from the curb, amidst the squeals and
jabbering of the four young ones, a BOOM exploded throughout the
car--a sound I can hear every time I think about it exactly as it was
that night. Chaos! What was it! Had the engine blown? Louder than
that--A bomb? Where?--So loud! Like it was inside the car! The kids were
screaming! Linda yelling--"What was that!!!" "I don't know" as I turned
to the back seat.
Jeff was holding a gun.
"A
gun!" I shouted. I grabbed it and threw it into the glove compartment
as Linda tried to keep the car straight, screaming "Is anybody hurt?"
"I
don't know!" Her baby was hysterical. I grabbed her and held her
close, hoping to calm her down. I felt something wet and sticky. Linda
yelled, "Blood, it's blood!"
She
stomped on the accelerator, headed for Baptist Hospital just around the
corner--though I still don't know how she did it. As we pulled into the
emergency entrance, she grabbed the baby and ran. I scooped up the
children and headed inside to register, answer questions, search for
answers and try to calm the children and myself while we waited. The
police appeared with questions about the hand gun, which I could not
answer, nor could Linda later, as to why her husband had a gun in the
car.
We
were all lucky. When Jeff saw the cigar box on the floor, opened it,
found the gun and pulled the trigger, he pointed it straight ahead,
instead of at himself or either of the girls beside him.The bullet went
through the side of the head rest before it hit the child. No vital
organ was damaged; it was only a rather deep flesh wound and the police
found the spent cartridge on the floor of the car. It had not lodged in
her little body.
Don's
explanation to us all for why he had the gun was "for protection." His
area of concentration in the law was collections. When a debtor could
not pay, Don assisted the debt holder in bringing suit against the
debtor. He said he had had threats from those who were desperate, who
were losing their homes, and he needed protection. As for the rest of
the questions--he had no answers. Why he kept a loaded gun in a cigar
box in the family car he could not say. He did apologize for not
remembering to take it out; but chastised us for not being alert enough
to hear the sound of the gun being cocked in time to stop the tragedy.
Jeff
tells me he can remember every minute as clearly as I can, though he
was only 5. Later that night, I read to him hoping to calm him down so
he could go to sleep. When we heard Tom's car in the driveway, he turned
to me with tears in his eyes and said, "Oh Momma, Daddy is going to be
so mad at me."
You
can believe me, that Jeff was not the one who felt Tom's anger. It was
the person who thought he could make himself safe by bringing more guns
into play, who was willing to endanger his family and friends by the
careless use of a weapon.
Don was governed by fear, as so many of us in this country are. We are afraid of young black men, of the homeless, of people who wear turbans, of innocent young people who come to our door to trick or treat, of hooded teenagers walking through our neighborhoods where they "don't belong", of anybody different from ourselves. We turn away from them, run from them, shoot them, go to war with them--and the gun manufacturers profit.
When horrific events happen in Sandy Hook or Columbine and small children are killed, we don't know how to react. Some think the answer is to arm teachers because they can shoot first and make the school safe. Some say "when guns are outlawed, only outlaws will have guns." Some of my very good friends, supporters of the NRA, believe that the Second Amendment guarantees the right for citizens to own almost any kind of weapon (though they do believe in background checks).
Here's some of what I believe. Yes, strict gun control, if not a total ban. Required gun safety courses for gun owners. Sure, that.
But there's more to it than that. I don't think that having fewer guns or no guns is the answer. I am an idealist. I believe that the attitude that gun control is the only answer because the horse is already out of the barn concerning guns is giving up, admitting defeat. I want to go for more. I want to go for changing our way of thinking, doing, living, relating to each other--a culture change. What if we stopped romanticizing violence? What if we learn to worship not the tough guys in Pulp Fiction or Fight Club, but instead the gentle, loving guys in To Kill a Mockingbird or Gandhi? What if our movie heroes were not the ones who used violence to solve problems; our most sought after video games were not those where realistic killing was the point ? And we did the killing!!! What if all our sports emphasized skill, endurance, cooperativeness, instead of violence where one of the purposes is to "take somebody out" with a head-on tackle and where the players are so damaged that their life expectancy is 55 years old? Oops, I know some Carolina/Clemson fans who will take exception to that one.
I believe in a world where we learn to honor God, not as an angry, vengeful God, a violent God who orders the Israelites to "not leave alive anything that breathes" or sends Joshua to destroy Jerico, or condemns sinners to hell, but as the loving New Testament God. I believe we can become a world where the mentally ill are not shunned, but are treated as any other person with an illness and we can commit the financial resources to truly help them. I believe in a world where we can learn to solve our problems without violence, but with respect, honoring one another. I believe in a world where we can overcome our selfishness, greed, lack of empathy and fear of one another. I believe in a world governed by compassion and respect for one another.
In that kind of world, Don won't need a gun.
Don was governed by fear, as so many of us in this country are. We are afraid of young black men, of the homeless, of people who wear turbans, of innocent young people who come to our door to trick or treat, of hooded teenagers walking through our neighborhoods where they "don't belong", of anybody different from ourselves. We turn away from them, run from them, shoot them, go to war with them--and the gun manufacturers profit.
When horrific events happen in Sandy Hook or Columbine and small children are killed, we don't know how to react. Some think the answer is to arm teachers because they can shoot first and make the school safe. Some say "when guns are outlawed, only outlaws will have guns." Some of my very good friends, supporters of the NRA, believe that the Second Amendment guarantees the right for citizens to own almost any kind of weapon (though they do believe in background checks).
Here's some of what I believe. Yes, strict gun control, if not a total ban. Required gun safety courses for gun owners. Sure, that.
But there's more to it than that. I don't think that having fewer guns or no guns is the answer. I am an idealist. I believe that the attitude that gun control is the only answer because the horse is already out of the barn concerning guns is giving up, admitting defeat. I want to go for more. I want to go for changing our way of thinking, doing, living, relating to each other--a culture change. What if we stopped romanticizing violence? What if we learn to worship not the tough guys in Pulp Fiction or Fight Club, but instead the gentle, loving guys in To Kill a Mockingbird or Gandhi? What if our movie heroes were not the ones who used violence to solve problems; our most sought after video games were not those where realistic killing was the point ? And we did the killing!!! What if all our sports emphasized skill, endurance, cooperativeness, instead of violence where one of the purposes is to "take somebody out" with a head-on tackle and where the players are so damaged that their life expectancy is 55 years old? Oops, I know some Carolina/Clemson fans who will take exception to that one.
I believe in a world where we learn to honor God, not as an angry, vengeful God, a violent God who orders the Israelites to "not leave alive anything that breathes" or sends Joshua to destroy Jerico, or condemns sinners to hell, but as the loving New Testament God. I believe we can become a world where the mentally ill are not shunned, but are treated as any other person with an illness and we can commit the financial resources to truly help them. I believe in a world where we can learn to solve our problems without violence, but with respect, honoring one another. I believe in a world where we can overcome our selfishness, greed, lack of empathy and fear of one another. I believe in a world governed by compassion and respect for one another.
In that kind of world, Don won't need a gun.
